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Worry Darts

 

I woke up the other morning with a flood of worry. Nothing has changed in my life to cause such an avalanche of anxiety. I just woke up and was overwhelmed by worrisome thoughts. Most of which were irrational. There tends to be a direct link between my level of sleepiness and my level of my irrational worries. And this one particular morning my mind was bombarded with worry darts.

What if that tiny bump on my leg is a sign of some horrible disease? What if our house randomly collapses? What if something happens to one of my kids? What if I’m a total hack as a writer and I’m just fooling myself?

I felt guilty for worrying over those things when so many people in this world are going through some really horrific things. Then I reminded myself that if God knows all the hairs on my head then he cares about my fears. No matter how irrational.

And the very hairs on your head are all numbered. So don’t be afraid; you are more valuable to God than a whole flock of sparrows. Luke 12:7

So then I asked myself the most important “what if” question. What if I handed it over to God?

So I did. I asked God to take all the worries away.

I sit here now writing this post and I feel so much better, but I also feel a little embarrassed about how irrational some of my fears were. Do you guys realize how many times I erased the fear of my house randomly collapsing? Three times. I erased it then rewrote it three times before I decided that I’m not going to underestimate you, my dear readers. Y’all won’t judge me because all of us have fears.  Sometimes they are legitimate and sometimes not.  But whether they are legitimate or not they can still be debilitating. If we let them.

But right now I sit in my house, without one bit of fear that it will collapse. Why? Because I handed it over to God—the perfect worry dart shield.